Uuuuh HI

Studying for 3 quizzes and 2 tests. Whoooo. Somehow I come back to tumblr. I might do some stuff since it ain’t summer anymore and I have stuff to talk about but iono. We’ll see. Time to go back to “studying” or more like talking to Jessica LOL

Lol parents. So much to say about them, especially now when I’m nearing my last year of high school. To be honest I think I have fluctuated a lot with them in terms on how I think about them. It goes from so much love to a lot of annoyance at a lot of times. But in the end, I can never go too far against their wishes.

My Mom has always been a very patient person. I remember when I was younger and when I used to be a really bad crybaby. I would run up the stairs and lock myself in the bathroom to cry because of something random that either my Dad said or whatever. She would always stand outside and constantly tell me to get out in a very comforting voice. With all of this love, how could I not feel bad? Constantly I always try to help her, and when I don’t or somehow shout at her, I always feel horrible about it later and apologize in shame, fearing what she thought the moment I did such a stupid thing. Even though she sometimes gets on my nerves a bit, I love her so much that I would probably fall apart if anything were ever to happen to her.

My Dad along with my Mom shaped me into the person I am today. My dad’s absolute patience along with firm guidance has allowed me to obtain the “godly” patience that I have today. He has always taught me what to do and what not to do. Although he was very hard on me in my childhood for my childish attitude, our relationship grew a lot more as I grew up and matured. I credit him to a lot of my knowledge and I credit both my parents for my morals and personality overall. It is actually very hard for me to talk about my parents because a lot of my emotions I can’t really put into words.

Overall, I love them so much. I know I often have conflicts with them and I’m sure that in the future, our beliefs will continue to differ in more severe ways. But I hope that they will always support me in my choices and decisions and continue to watch over me as they have so far. Although I haven’t always been able to be the straight A student they wanted me to be, I strive to make both my parents proud of me and become a man worthy of their name. I have loved them, and I will always love them with all my heart and soul.

Uhhh crush huh….

Well I can’t say much cause I don’t really crush on people. Hell I didn’t know what it was until high school? xD Such a gamer nerd I had no time. D:< As for one right now, I guess it’s not super existent because of school and other worries on my mind. Not to mention the boredom of summer. But hey, if it comes along, we’ll see what will happen and hopefully it doesn’t cause my life to be complicated -_-‘

Uhhh crush huh….

Well I can’t say much cause I don’t really crush on people. Hell I didn’t know what it was until high school? xD Such a gamer nerd I had no time. D:< As for one right now, I guess it’s not super existent because of school and other worries on my mind. Not to mention the boredom of summer. But hey, if it comes along, we’ll see what will happen and hopefully it doesn’t cause my life to be complicated -_-‘

So I gotta do this challenge thing because otherwise I’ll be outcasted by Lulu D:. But as for best friends, I actually have a few that I can’t really put on top of each other (hehe dirty joke). But I think if I had to talk about it for a while, I could definitely talk about one person, Jimmy Sok.

Now you might not know him, or know him that well. At first look, he may seem really funny and chill or you could be scared of him because he might be pissed off. I’ve known this guy since 4th grade when I moved to San Jose from Cupertino. He was definitely one of my first friends and ever since then to around high school freshman year, we were always lightly acquainted. Honestly don’t even remember much of 4th grade besides our teacher Ms. Tsang’s wedding and her transformation into Mrs. Cones. That wedding was awesome! So much good food and stuff it was sick. Plus this one kid Derrick caught the bouquet when she threw it for our class LOL. Fail.

Not to mention, I used to take a lot of his lunch money because he never wanted to eat lunch. I used to eat the glories of hot lunch those days and to me who always had cold lunch, it was glorious xD. I owe him so much because of that xD. Plus he was one of the people who taught me how to play four square when I arrived, which btw is probably the most epic elementary school game in the world. I don’t see why it just disappears in middle school and even in high school because that game was the shit. I remember how sad I was when I got to Quimby and saw there there was only basketball -____-‘

But enough sidetracking, I remember this guy a lot from 6th grade. We had a class together with Ms. Ward (aka the best elementary teacher or teacher in general I’ve had ever). The first day we had rumors that she was a nasty teacher and she was super mean and hard. I can’t say she was easy but she definitely wasn’t anything like the rumors. But we loved keeping that rumor around for the other ignorant 6th graders and scare them >:D. So many good memories like our semi wheel of fortune thing where we had to guess letters every week and try to get the word and if we did we got some kind of prize. Then of course cleaning desks, that’s when Jimmy’s hellspawn desk came into play. He had so much stuff in there that it took him, my other friend Andrew Nguyen, and myself just to clean that shit out. -Shudders- bad memories mang. xD

This is how we initially connected and became close friends. Sadly over middle school, we didn’t talk as much and sorta split, besides talking a little bit in leadership during 8th grade. But we also had Adv. Algebra together and we used to always make fun of this really annoying kid with the rest of the class because no one liked him. Pretty sad but hey, he really was annoying -_- (Ryan Blackman if you know him). It was so sad that even the teacher used to laugh at our jokes against him. But from there we still stood in contact.

During this time was when he was in his relationship with a girl. And the same year, this girl was really a bitch and things just broke off from there. Pretty sad but I remember we used to talk about it and he was really bitter back then, possibly the start of our constant “Dawg I’m sad” talks xD.

Now that I think about it we actually had a lot of classes, not necessarily the same class but the same teachers. Freshman year we had Comp Apps together and we used to talk about how freaking easy it was and how everyone played games on the computers instead (Sigh good times playing Gameboy Advance games on the computer). AND OMG NOT TO MENTION SPANISH 1 WITH QUIROGA LOLOL. Most horrible way to start “learning” a language ever. I had him and Brian Bui in my class and if they weren’t distracting enough, constantly getting me in trouble for turning around and talking to them, the class as a whole freaking hated her and did so much stuff to her LOL. I mean they stole her chimes, her fire extinguisher, constantly made fun of her almost directly in her face, cheated on her tests, it goes on and on. But it was hilarious…. Then even after that we had AP World History and we used to talk about the random stuff that happened in our periods.

To be honest I’m getting tired of talking about all these memories or more like trying to remember everything. It’s getting sorta long so I might end it soon. To make things short, the interval between sophomore and junior year was the year I was able to say he was one of my best friends. Why? Because I bitched about pretty much everything to him, and he did the same to me. We still pretty much talk everyday going “I’m bored” and stuff. We talked so much that we actually ran out of things to talk about because we have no lives and stuff… xD. Especially during this time, I went through a really depressing stage of my life (which I can’t say I’ve gotten out of yet unfortunately) but it really helped when we used to talk because he could somewhat relate to what was happening. Seriously, he’s one of the people that I will make sure to stay in touch with and I’m pretty sure over AIM, we will still saying that we’re bored even in college. Over the summer of sophomore year where we used to stay up all night either playing games or just talking, to junior year having Devo and a freaking hilarious class, we’ve had each others backs since childhood. He’s one of the few people I can say is mah boi and even after saying all of this, there’s probably a ton of stuff I haven’t even remembered that we did. All of this doesn’t add up to the amount of thanks I want to give him and for the future. But for now, I think this is enough. :D

yeah im just gonna be writing w/e cause im bored right now lol. may seem a little wtf at the stuff im talking about but hey its me so shouldnt be all too surprising ;P

yeah so the breaks been pretty good i guess. nothing special though, just sleeping at home and trying to find stuff to do >_>’. was pretty happy that i got in tennis though and ive been wanting to play all week. but i think im playing tomorrow and with a friend who ive been wanting to play for a long time too so that will be fun. but yeah just looking for music and listening for stuff that makes me go whoa lyrically.

yeah i also hate how i have this shadow of homework that keeps following me. i say that im going to start tomorrow and i hope i do cause i actually have a lot this time. luckily though ethan frome doesnt seem long at all and i actually enjoy doing art hw so that knocks some stuff off.

i noticed how much i love listening to people talk inspirational like. i love getting that tingle down my spine everytime they say something with deep meaning and at the same time i love it when they’re just screwing around and having fun. i got to thinking this after rewatching hilarious standup by dave chappelle. if i had to say anyone i’d want to meet, he’d definitely be in the tops of my list. some others would be of course my favorite music artists. i mean now that i think about it, they are the people that most often leave me with that tingly feeling.

which gets me to thinking about music. i was talking with someone the other day and we were talking about how we want to share our favorite music but at the same time we dont want to. i mean look at salt water room, that thing spread like wildfire and yeah its a good song and all but i mean its really overused and heard everywhere. you always have that fear that the song you find will get popular and then you wont like it as much anymore because everyone knows. but then at the same time you want that artist to strive and get money and continue to make great music. quite the conundrum indeed.

haha and then now i jump to guitar. yeah a friend asked me about it so i tried learning a song but its really annoying. the finger placement for some songs are just so lame (especially with my stupid chubby fingers that block a certain string from vibrating -_-‘). but then at the same time i want to get better at it but then i just lose the urge sometimes to keep going. thats why i think id do better if i had a class cause then id have more motivation. because i mean i love playing with instruments but i guess i never really put all my concentration into trying to learn a song. one day though ill definitely put my mind to it :D

which reminds me of this video that i watched called like the simple things you need to know about guitar to get laid or something by college humor. i thought it was pretty funny but then i thought, what makes me special? yeah weird question to ask after that kind of video huh? but yeah it really bothers me that i dont have this thing that defines me. and you know what i mean. like you know this one person because they’re good at piano or you know this other guy cause they’re really good at school. but then i think when it comes to me, what do i really have? i dont have anything special about me at all. maybe its just my extremely low self esteem talking but it makes me kind of sad.

also it may seem kind of silly but then i also think about high school relationships. like i dont think id ever be seen in that kind of way just because i have nothing going on for me to individualize me from the rest. im probably one of those guys thats just stuck labeled as “the friend”. i always thought that and i often when im in my little daydreams creating random scenarios, seem to try to imagine myself as something more when im really not. yeah pretty pessimistic thinking but hey i guess thats what junior year does to you right? >_>

yeah but then that for some reason randomly brings me to some things that annoy me. for example, picture this. you’re taking a test and you feel like you didnt do too good. so you’re feeling a bit down. you look around and you see everyone talking about the test etc etc. then of course theres those people that always go “dude i totally failed that omg”. its bs cause of course what do you know, the test comes back later and they got some super A or at least a good grade. and then you get your test and you actually did bad. like seriously that annoys the shit out of me because why would you even say that then. i mean yeah you’re probably worried but im pretty sure if you some good grade, you have to be pretty damn sure you actually got that grade. and what annoys me more is that i think this happens in brackets. for example i feel this way towards the A students, the C students probably feel this way towards B students, etc etc.

but yeah another thing thats been biting at me is groups. for a while now to be honest, ive been feeling kind of left out i guess. idk if its just me or maybe what im feeling really is true but yeah. its kinda weird cause ive come to see actual “sects” if you may, in the group. and yeah i guess i dont feel welcome to any of those so it makes me kinda sad. i also miss having people to confide in. i mean i have one or two but ive talked to them so much i can almost tell what they would say before i even say it. and i mean i still talk to them about it but yeah i guess its just some weird feeling of loneliness. and i know theres a lot of people that i definitely trust in, but for some reason i just havent found someone yet that i could comfortably just blabber on and on about pretty much what im doing right here lol.

random thought but i  realized that i dont know anyone that shares my main taste in music. idk its weird cause idk if i even want that. i mean it would probably be nice to get songs recommended and also recommend songs, but then i realized most of my music i found by myself, after being jump started from it by my brother. kinda like i was saying before about sharing and stuff but then at the same time its kinda lame when people ask to look through your ipod and dont know anyone at all. maybe thats why i dont bother to let people look at my ipod, becuase i automatically assume that by the time i know you well enough for you to ask me to see my ipod, i can tell what kind of music you’d listen so i just dont show it. either that or im too lazy xD. but yeah lately ive been lazy to update my ipod with music and also bringing it around. i just completely stopped bringing it to school because i dont have any chance to listen to it there anyways so its just a waste of space in my pocket.

haha random too but then i was thinking about people liking each other. theres always those super weird love triangles or even love squares sometimes haha. i always wondered if anyone out there liked me, but i always gave them the benefit of the doubt in saying there is no one xD. but it would be interesting if someone did tell me. i wonder what id do. probably freak out and be like say what? say that again please? hahaha. but yeah i totally wouldnt just ditch them if they liked me. still be friends and all that.

haha i wonder if you (yes you, the reader) is still even reading up to this point XD.

oh! speaking of which i went out roller blading, even though it was only for like 3 minutes to get to a friends house. but damn its so nice to go out when its near dark. i almost forgot how much i loved it in the first place. i really wish this place was more suited to it cause its a damn shame. but yeah the speed and the wind gave me bursts of short memories of years ago. sigh good times. i totally need to go out with these more for sure.

its kinda weird how everyone that i know went through some kind of thing or has been going through it all at junior year. i mean why is it junior year in specific when things could happen at like anytime. well except for me i guess, only thing that bothers me are my own thoughts and not being able to i guess deliver them to anyone.

which gets me to thinking about when you’re mad. of course im not really mad a lot but i do get irritated and stuff. but also when you’re “sad”. i think its annoying when your friends simply do stuff like “stop it you cant be mad/sad ever!” i think most of the time its better to just talk with them casually if they’re not telling you about whats getting them sad or etc. cause i mean half the time you can get their mind off of w/e is getting them down or mad by just saying something random or idk. maybe it just seems easy to me but yeah. it also is sometimes annoying when they try to relate to whats happening to you. yeah its not as bad as just saying no completely but then its a 50/50 chance. you either could totally get it, or just annoy them even more in the process.

you know another thing that annoys me? how some people still have this weird distinct differentiation between video game stories and books. i mean seriously, all of my plots and stories that i have and saw were bloody brilliant and from video games. but there are some people out there that somehow say that you cant compare the two. but i mean theres so many counter examples to that. such as books being written off of the video game series itself, or vice versa. but somehow its still looked down upon by some. and i mean some people say that im good at storytelling or making up stories, and if i am, i would have to credit my entire imagination to video games itself. they probably create the very fabric of my thought process and imagination not only to stories but to anything. if anything it should be seen more as of a preference. like a one handed backhand or a two handed backhand, coke and pepsi, ipod to any other mp3 device, they both get the job done it just depends on preference. and im not saying that everyone who only reads books think this but i know there are people out there like that and that just annoys me too.

and yeah especially as of late, i realized that another annoyance i have, though small, has to do with symmetry. yeah at first reading that you’re probably like okay wth is wrong with you adil. but somethings just put me off. idk like for example the other day my friend was wearing shoes. they were both the same teal color, shape, and everything. but the difference was that one shoe had a pattern on it covering the shoe, the other was just plain. so i asked them, did the other pattern like fade off? and they were just like no its like that. and then that set me off as weird. another case is people who have weirdly trimmed nails. for example one hand will be short, but the other hand wont be, etc etc. i find that weird too cause why would you only do it to one of your hands and not the other. there have been more i think but i cant think of any at the top of my head but yeah so theres my little “symmetry pet peeve”.

yeah its only this long because im bored and have nothing better to do to be honest. most of it is natural though cause my brain does jump from idea to idea. but i think ima put this one to rest cause i cant think of anything else from the last topic. hope you didnt get lost in the sea of words lol. enjoy this super one cause i doubt another whopper like this one will come out soon if not ever.

yeah today was pretty normal. but im hecka scared for tennis because cuts are friday >_<. im crossing my fingers for that haha. and bleh stupid lit and calc are like making this week complicated. hell they make everything complicated -_-‘. and then sat scores are coming in too and i can tell that ima get some fail grade and be even more sad. bleeeh hopefully things get better

DUDE THESE ARE SO NICE LOOKING. LIKE I THOUGHT THEY WERE GONNA BE CHEAP LOOKING BUT THEY LOOK SO SHINY AND NICE.

OH AND ALSO START ASKING ME QUESTIONS CAUSE THATS WHY I DID THIS THING IN THE FIRST PLACE HAHA

Edit: sigh report card makes me sad

yeah still getting used to this so this may be a long read >_>. so second day of blogging huh. i only really made this for the question thing cause thats fun but mind as well exploit this too while im at it haha. well i guess a blog starts with my day. lets see…. i guess my day was okay.

pretty much got up with of course 5 hours of sleep. got to school and went to art. i was pretty much just doing my calc hw in art and ms shirkey doesnt seem to care lol cause she pretty much just went over and like wow calculus huh. but then it got weird cause everyone around me was like wooah hes in calculus and then im like >_>.

yeah and then calc was normal pretty much. i thought it wasnt that that hard but then i kept going and of course i felt like i normally did in that class (stupid). but yeah lit was actually pretty interesting today and also funny. props to pauline for “prosti-dude” :D

bio test was really easy but no surprise there. id love if solomon taught ap bio cause id totally take it XDD. spanish quiz was annoying because i didnt know the stupid reasons for por and para and i was like grrrr.

tennis was decent. my serves werent horrible and were pretty okay. but we played this game called graveyard and its really fun haha. it was pretty much juniors and seniors vs freshies and sophomores and like its like a rally but if you miss or go out then you have to sit where you hit the ball and like the only way to become “alive” again is to hit the ball while sitting. of course i was the first one to be able to do it so it was so cool. and then i did it AGAIN HAHA. i was the only one to pretty much hit it over twice to save myself so that was fun. afterwards i just rallied with some friends and that was pretty cool too.

and yeah my racket might be super colorful cause ima have yellow strings, a blue and black head, and then a red overgrip so ALL THE PRIMARY COLORS HAHA

hopefully hw doesnt take too long today.

Well I have finally been persuaded to make a blog thingy BECAUSE OF SOMEONE :]

So I guess this is my first post but I can’t think of anything to write because I got super distracted from hw and gotta do calc and apush T.T

So yeeeah gonna get sugar and finish work up, maybe stuff will come up laterr loool.